Author: Kawai Touko
Themes: Abuse, depression, school life, BDSM, cutting, scars, violence
Book details: Manga, 200 pages
Summary: Sakaguchi is in a sexual relationship with his step father that is abusive, but he enjoys the pain because it helps mask darker memories from his past. He then meets another student who also has a troubled background who may be the person to help him stop his self-inflicted pain.
I first read this story a long time ago and thought it was time I did a reread.
Eiji's story is so horrible. What's sad is that I can see that happening in real life, and unfortnutely there are a lot of parents who feel that way towards their children. Chiaki's story is also sad, but in a different way. What Chiaki puts himself through because of guilt is the worst part. It's sad that the only way Chiaki knows how to comfort Eiji is through sex (and pain for himself).
I love how by the end they both came clean about why they did the things they did. They both wanted to move on because they had each other, and they couldn't go on properly if they could hide behind their past. The end of chapter five totally made me cry!
The epilogue is an awesome ending. I love how the scars of the past are still there, they both know they probably always will be. But they're still happy together, they get through it together.